it's not difficult at all for me to do things that you love to do.
because by doing so we'd be able to spend time together.
we'd have a lot to talk about in common.
reading manga, watching anime, playing online games,
practicing aikido and meditation, go bowling, taking course on english and math.
in every little thing i did,
i never missed 'seeing you' as the main reason to be taken into consideration.
it's passed over years and
i had pretty much grown to be like you.
i did anything to prove that i'm worth enough to be yours.
or so i thought.
"can't you see that i'm the one who suits you the most?"
is what i used to tell you all the time.
looking back now, i was being so silly.
as i see our paths are far more apart,
i had no longer been following you.
i don't take you as a direction anymore.
noticing your growth of perfection drives me mad.
is it jealousy? is it rivalry? is it a willing to surpass?
or is it the same old crave to be seen by you?